I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me.Yet this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope; Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning, great is Thy faithfulness. I say to myself, ‘The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him’. The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him.
~ Lamentation 3: 19-23, 25~
I am so tempted to say, “who am I kidding here? It will never going to work because this is all my fault!!”. But I pray for His Holy Spirit to open my eyes and soften my heart into obedience so I will be able to see that I still have hope in Him, no matter what has happened, no matter how I’ve started to go down the same spiral of doom. I still have hope that I will be better, I will get better, there’s a better life that He has designed for me, and He will walk with me until I am completely restored.